Snippets by Vijay

Her talks were like nectar. It’s droplets on my tongue were the hazy recollections I had when I woke up at the break of the dawn next day. Never in my life had I been so thirsty for conversation.

I think most people do not want to be atheist because the moment you stop believing in higher power you realise that there is no grand scheme; that you are in total control of your life which is sprinkled with chaos having no necessary meaning. Not everyone is ready for that kind of ownership. Its easy to have someone to pray to at times when things don’t go your way or to find respite in a thought that there is an incorruptible almighty moving chess pieces to ensure fairness and greater good. It is far more difficult to do things as simple as inspire yourself to do better during dark times in the absence of an artificial construct such as a religion or a god.

When I become too overwhelmed with emotions and the point of it all, I consciously remind myself that I am an animal. Sure, my brain is far bigger and has ability to create these social and intellectual constructs in which I live but at my core I am also an animal. And when entire nature can exist in beauty without meaning why do I keep searching for one?

Sometimes things hit you unexpectedly and out of nowhere like a hull of a ship hits a whale; with a tremendous force mighty enough to leave a wound that can take a life time to heal and you have no other option but to accept the scars and move on with your life.

Some people are like Idlis.

They aren’t different on the outside compared to the inside like Medu Vada. They aren’t excessively sweet like Rasagullas or complicated like Pani-Puri. They are just themselves, plain, simple and most importantly, wholesome.

Be an Idli. Seek an Idli.

Choose reality over distractions.

Nothing big ever happens in one day. In fact, the journey to some of the biggest and most audacious dreams of your life would often look like a series of boring Wednesdays. You may also not love all parts of it, and downright hate some of it, but it is the possibility of the end goals becoming true that’ll drive you.

Steal those little pockets of time you find scattered around your day and use them. Give all that you can and hold yourself to a higher standard that you’ve created for your own self, not tomorrow, not the day after, but today and each day, and every day.

i’ve found myself waiting,
    for love to arrive, in past.
yet it never found me,
    in world this vast.
and now when it knocks,
    right on my door!
i can’t seem to move,
    i remain unsure.
there are nooks inside,
    that i am yet to explore.
leave this soul to mend,
    let it become whole before.

This time around, love was different, it didn’t sweep me off my feet, instead, i felt a gentle pull towards it.